Hi, I just introduced myself briefly in the Introduction forum. I am a 24 year old female in college and trying to pursue a career of my dreams. Over the past year a half I was in a on and off relationship with a older male (mentally half his age). The first few months of dating this guy I thought I found the one but really I was blind sided by lifestyle which I never really experienced before. It was fun, kept me busy and kept many difficult aspects of my life off my mind. Signs were showing but I was stupid not to do anything about it kept on staying with him. As I said we were on and off. My friends started to dislike the guy as well as the main family figure in my life did so too. I dated him behind peoples back thinking on and on again this would change. It became worse and worse. Til then recently we broke up. Most of the time our evil, scary fights were toward the end of a night of drinking (he becomes another person when drinking, and possible signs of drug abuse behind my back). His family would get involved more and mine too as well. But, the story was always twisted around when he told it of course.
I like the fact of having someone, I do not like sleeping around or the idea od starting all over again (I can admit that). I do not know where my head was at this past year a half but I can only sit here and regret.
Bullying - online, abuse
I can most definitely say the guy I dated is immature and sometimes reminds me that I could be dating a female. Publicly I am abused online on social media accounts of his. I am called out for things I would say on the phone in a fight. He also slanders my name and allows others to think I am the bad person of the relationship. He makes me look crazy. growing up I really worked for my reputation, I never took drugs never slept around and what not. He basically ruined my life made me look like the demon. He would say that I am a terrible person, rotten, fake, phony, miserable all the time and so many things I wish to not discuss personally. He would do his best to make my friends go against me and let them think I trash talk about them. My body one time was mentioned online how I did not look a certain way. I have become so depressed that I had thoughts of suicide but I am a stronger person. I am not sure why I went back every single time. But I always had a thought I couldn't marry this person, have kids with him or I really did not love him
Right now I am depressed, and honestly I hate people to think so negativitly of me. I am also worried about the future and where this may go. I hope that he can find someone else and let her deal with this. He always finds a way to get in touch with me some how. I need to stop looking online and having his disgusting words get to me so. Truly and honestly I am a sensitive person. I have lost two close family members in the past few years/ one sick so this added to that is not what I need.
What I need is to discuss and talk to others about their situation with an ex like this. My friends seem to not understand me. Seeking professional help is another option for me right now. But I felt it was necessary to come here and speak here. thank you
I like the fact of having someone, I do not like sleeping around or the idea od starting all over again (I can admit that). I do not know where my head was at this past year a half but I can only sit here and regret.
Bullying - online, abuse
I can most definitely say the guy I dated is immature and sometimes reminds me that I could be dating a female. Publicly I am abused online on social media accounts of his. I am called out for things I would say on the phone in a fight. He also slanders my name and allows others to think I am the bad person of the relationship. He makes me look crazy. growing up I really worked for my reputation, I never took drugs never slept around and what not. He basically ruined my life made me look like the demon. He would say that I am a terrible person, rotten, fake, phony, miserable all the time and so many things I wish to not discuss personally. He would do his best to make my friends go against me and let them think I trash talk about them. My body one time was mentioned online how I did not look a certain way. I have become so depressed that I had thoughts of suicide but I am a stronger person. I am not sure why I went back every single time. But I always had a thought I couldn't marry this person, have kids with him or I really did not love him
Right now I am depressed, and honestly I hate people to think so negativitly of me. I am also worried about the future and where this may go. I hope that he can find someone else and let her deal with this. He always finds a way to get in touch with me some how. I need to stop looking online and having his disgusting words get to me so. Truly and honestly I am a sensitive person. I have lost two close family members in the past few years/ one sick so this added to that is not what I need.
What I need is to discuss and talk to others about their situation with an ex like this. My friends seem to not understand me. Seeking professional help is another option for me right now. But I felt it was necessary to come here and speak here. thank you
