Hi,
I don't feel able to write too much but I'll try and explain the best I can.
I have long standing mental health problems (Anorexia, Depression and a few years ago was diagnosed with PTSD and an opiate addiction)
I have a number of physical health related conditions. Severe endometriosis (which I've had 5 operations for as it's very aggressive) and Urology problems - the other health related problems aren't relevant to this post.
I've been under urology/gynaecology for 4 years. A few months ago I hit crisis. The team were trying to call me as they taught me to self catherterise and I found it very traumatic, only managed it a few times as found it brought up a lot of memories. My private gyae removed the coil urgently a few months ago as it was causing migraines and I hadn't prepared and it was so traumatic. Combined with a lot of other things I ended up in A&E as felt very unsafe.
The urologist saw me today (I was discharged as I kept ignoring all their calls and letters) but briefly explained to the sectary that my physical health had been poor and my mum also called (don't know what she said but she doesn't know about the PTSD)
I saw the consultant today and he seemed pretty concerned. I wasn't myself and just felt very low and distant. He asked why I wasn't happy with the self catherisation and I didn't really answer, just made it clear I wasn't happy using it. He said something like "do you find it hard to touch there" and I said yes and got upset. He didn't push it. I also said no one will prescribe me codeine and I'm in pain and again he didn't answer me question when I asked him to prescribe it. I assumed he doesn't know about the codeine addiction but I suspect he does :(
He said he felt I was mentally too fragile for any physical investigations at the moment and wants to wait until I feel better. He also asked how often I'm seeing mental health services and asked when my psychiatrist appointment was and said he really thinks I need to go. I'm also worried as he will always write to the GP and CC me in and I'm worried what it's going to say :(
I don't like not knowing what he knows. I feel so anxious. Is it normal to have found the self catherisation to difficult and brings up a lot?
I don't feel able to write too much but I'll try and explain the best I can.
I have long standing mental health problems (Anorexia, Depression and a few years ago was diagnosed with PTSD and an opiate addiction)
I have a number of physical health related conditions. Severe endometriosis (which I've had 5 operations for as it's very aggressive) and Urology problems - the other health related problems aren't relevant to this post.
I've been under urology/gynaecology for 4 years. A few months ago I hit crisis. The team were trying to call me as they taught me to self catherterise and I found it very traumatic, only managed it a few times as found it brought up a lot of memories. My private gyae removed the coil urgently a few months ago as it was causing migraines and I hadn't prepared and it was so traumatic. Combined with a lot of other things I ended up in A&E as felt very unsafe.
The urologist saw me today (I was discharged as I kept ignoring all their calls and letters) but briefly explained to the sectary that my physical health had been poor and my mum also called (don't know what she said but she doesn't know about the PTSD)
I saw the consultant today and he seemed pretty concerned. I wasn't myself and just felt very low and distant. He asked why I wasn't happy with the self catherisation and I didn't really answer, just made it clear I wasn't happy using it. He said something like "do you find it hard to touch there" and I said yes and got upset. He didn't push it. I also said no one will prescribe me codeine and I'm in pain and again he didn't answer me question when I asked him to prescribe it. I assumed he doesn't know about the codeine addiction but I suspect he does :(
He said he felt I was mentally too fragile for any physical investigations at the moment and wants to wait until I feel better. He also asked how often I'm seeing mental health services and asked when my psychiatrist appointment was and said he really thinks I need to go. I'm also worried as he will always write to the GP and CC me in and I'm worried what it's going to say :(
I don't like not knowing what he knows. I feel so anxious. Is it normal to have found the self catherisation to difficult and brings up a lot?
